Femme Fatals

Just got another set of ear bashing from a soul, who I still do have no idea why she keeps up with my crazy ideas and duffer acts. All these years I have had my fair share of dumbness and my best of stupidity/immaturity. These have given a lot of losses to ponder over them; sometimes I regret and sometimes I am encouraged. The funny thing is most of the duffer acts I have done (say about 60%) has something related to my attraction towards my female pals (currently female foes), the rest of my duffer acts are a result of my dubious and rather unlucky approaches towards responsibility in life.

Anyways this scribble is related to the first reason, my attraction towards my female pals (currently female foes). Most of my best pals have actually wanted to know how many females have led me to do the duffer acts, well to be frank I never told them my complete list (it had nothing to do with hiding names or losing count, it was just that I kept forgetting a name or two when I try to tell the whole story). Anyways, I guess it is time I paid tribute to these femme-fatales.

SH a.k.a MD: As years passed on after what happened between us, I rate this as the ultimate case of lunacy in my life. A complete duffer of an event in my life. I THANK GOD for the way things have turned out. This memory springs back to life whenever I think of events in life that made me “re-think” about my motives in life. I praise that 19 year old duffer of 2002 who makes me chuckle out loud and ease my hectic work tension with his classic disaster. After this event, I kind of got an idea about what Einstein meant by “Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love.”

S.B a.k.a Tearbags : This is a strange story. Never knew what happened between the two of us. One day (though I do not which day), we just drifted apart. We shared a lot during our days of friendship and I cherished her as one of the best female pals I had. I guess females are rather strange and can give you a thunderbolt jab even you least expect it. I loved the days I shared with her, a really nice friend. Now that is history, I moved on but after experiencing the pain of loosing a pal. Now when I think of it, I feel sorry for that 23 year old who got a rather bitter taste of friendship.

Muskan : Utter confusion. That phrase sums it all up about our relationship. The 19 year was kind of in confused state of mind when this female showed up in his life. I was also rather blinded and thrown out of the senses most of the time. She was a huge support, a great female with big loads of patience for she held to me even when I was fading away from her. I do not know why I faded, was it fear or just my clumsiness. She took up all the mess and tantrums this friend of hers threw up on her waiting for my move. I just never came. Then time flew, and I realized but it was too late. I had lost it, the chance to prove myself worthy as a friend. No complains but only regret. I regret that I was not loyal to a friendship and that I gave pain to a good soul. But now as I look at things, I feel she is in a much better position in life now. I thank the All Mighty for equating me out of her life. She is happy and I am at peace cherishing the friendship and concern she gave and shared with in those years.

Ree : The most wildest and short lived relationship and my best kept secret (until this confession). It was KISS, KISS, SLAP,BANG and KABOOM between us. We shared a good rapport. It lasted 6 months and then we just walked our separate ways. This relationship is something like an eye opener for me. The walk-off was mutual but then it had enough reasons to make it otherwise. This was the only relationship in which intellect, books, music and current affairs made headlines. It was a geek meet geek affair that turned murky and realized that even geeks can have monstrous brawls and hot exchanges. This relationship was a stage in life when the 23 year learned a lot in life about relationships with his opposite sex and got a taste for rapid and quick backfires. This was the stage in her life to realize that experiences are not be heard but instead witnessed. Now when we meet up once in a blue moon, we exchange our pleasantries and update ourselves on the latest music, books and praise the coffee being served at the coffee place we meet up.

Wild one: This is the saga that is the sole reason which gives me the best smile I can ever have on my face. No words can describe this rapport but all I can say is that this person and relationship has helped me a lot in many points of my life. She Came, She Saw and She Conquered.

R.R: I do not know how, when or why this name or person is connected to this list but she is there in the list. This was the most subtle and least energetic relationship (if one can call this a relationship) that I had. I was out of my female chasing and flirting modes in life and was more into trying to understand my own existence. At 26 years I guess it is time that I went for more of ME and than a HER. She was there and so was I but then I had burned enough fingers with befriending females be it as a true pal or as the flirt. I had notions and ideas but as luck would have it It was made sure I just dosed them down the drain (most of the time it was voluntarily from me). She was a fiery kind of a female. I see her as sheep in wolf’s clothing. Now she is gone and so am I and thus ends the story.

I hope I have no more Femme Fatales in life for I am kind of liking being all by myself and my close little circle of pals.